big picture

what is happening with these crazy big pictures?!?!?! well, it is a long story but i will give you the short version.

addison was born.
dad took a new job.
mom found a new daycare close to dad's new job.
mom and dad commute like crazy.
house goes up for sale.
football season comes and goes.
addison has an ear infection.
deadlines wrap up for one major project.
wrestling season about does mom in.
another ear infection.
still commuting.
spring...a little rest. just a little.
launch label business big time.
brooke and josh decide to move to tulsa. crap.
spring football begins.
back to commuting.
another ear infection...again.
brooke gets pregnant. yeah. but still moving. crap.
start making invitations. what am i thinking?
house not sold.
ear infection. can we say tubes?
daddy daycare begins.
mom overcome with jealousy (i want to be at home with addison).
mom overcome with sadness (my sister is moving).
mom overcome with stress, stress and stress (work is not fun right now).
birthday party. check.
tubes. check.
1-year checkup. check.
assist brooke with wedding. check.
natalie's pics. check.
deadline for project i hate. ch...wait. no check.

this is the news i get this morning as i walk into work expecting to pull a long day and a long night. stop working. project is on hold. what? hold? after pulling my hair out for three weeks doing architectural drawings (when i am not even an architect) now they tell me it is on hold? so basically here i am spending the morning playing on the computer. and it is fabulous. i have been trying to figure out how to make big pictures on my blog...but don't have time (see above list). i have been trying to post about addison's tubes and how fabulous they are...but i don't have time (see above list). i have been trying to get out of this funk i am in...but can't seem to find the answer (see above list...especially the part where brooke is moving...to tulsa). i have been trying to just be thankful and content with where God has us...but can't seem to stop and just smell the roses (again see the list). but today, this morning, i have had four hours to play. to gaze at pictures of family, babies, weddings, smiles...pictures that show me, teach me that this funk, this place, it will end. and even if it doesn't, even if we don't sell our house, even if i never get over the ache of missing my sister, even then... it will all be ok. one day i will see the big picture.

back to the pictures...so yeah, i figured out how to do it. i probably won't go to that trouble every time but today it was needed. today is a big picture day.