pondering

it is overcast outside. and dim in my office...just a soft lamp glowing and a candle flickering. it is quiet, for now. there is a song playing, over and over, that i adore. trees and flowers from the chair and a microphone album vol 3 (i think)...how marverlous, how wonderful, in my song shall ever be. how marvelous, how wonderful, is my savior's love for me...and i am contemplative. and if you know me, you know i am anything but contemplative. but some days, about 2 times a year, i do indeed contemplate. and ponder. and the funny thing is i have no idea what i am even pondering...just...life. i guess.

my best friend's grandpa just passed away. hours ago. and i ache for her and her family.

my sweet friend/neighbor's daddy is battling brain cancer. and though i am at a loss for words or even encouragement, my emotions run deep and i just want to hug her. tell her i love her.

my daughter starts 4k on monday and her buddy starts kindergarden. just. not. ready.


riley is so big. and growing so fast. and the miracle of these babies, they overwhelm me.


my "2nd sister" is having twin baby girls soon. and i love them so much already. i cannot wait to meet them. cannot wait to love and adore them the way their mommy and daddy have loved and adored my kiddies.


terry is back at it. football. then wrestling. then...who knows. but i am holding on tight.


i miss my sister. i wish she was here. sipping on some coffee with me. talking. not talking. doesn't matter.

there is more. there is always more. but those are the ones at the surface.